1. A failure in the kitchen! David usually comes home from work after a long day with no dinner on the table. I HATE planning a meal and cooking! When it's time to get into the kitchen I immediately think whatever comes out is going to be crap. Then the guilt comes in that I am a bad wife...failure!
2. A failure at life because I don't have a paying job right now.
3. A failure with self-control. I want to eat healthy, but Snickers are on sale at Target. I have to buy a bag. A bag of chips does not stand a chance in front of me. I feel guilty for all the bad choices and vow to do better tomorrow. Tomorrow comes with all its temptation, and I label myself a failure again.
I have been reading Made to Crave and just started Unglued by Lysa Terkeurst. Both are great books so far! And God is using both to teach me about himself, self-control, and failure.
God loves me even in the mess of feeling like a failure. I've heard and read God loves me thousands of times, but today I started to believe it! The failures do not have to define me. I'm a girl loved by Jesus, that's who I am. Jesus loves me during this messy season of life, and I know he does not want me to stay here.
In 1 Peter 2:9, God is calling me out of the dark pit of failure.
For you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God's very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.
I'm learning about my failures and my weaknesses to grow closer to Jesus, and so God can mold me into the person I am created to be. Today I chose a banana over the candy staring at me. A small victory, and it may be dumb to some people. But today I'm thankful for God's strength to say no. And I'm learning to praise Jesus for the small victories in the kitchen too. David had more than Skittles for dinner tonight...YAY! The picture is a quote from Lysa's book Unglued. Imperfect Progress. I'm not going to stay in the cycle of failure! One step at a time I'm moving toward Jesus by his Grace. It is slow, and I'm now okay with that!
The song Greater by Mercy Me has been on repeat today. These are the lyrics I love most
There'll be days I lose the battle
Grace says that it doesn't matter
'Cause the cross already won the war
He's Greater
He's Greater
I am learning to run freely
Understanding just how he sees me
And it makes me love Him more and more
He's Greater
He's Greater
This was a beautiful post. You have inspired me just by sharing the moments where you feel as though you have failed. You are one incredible person!
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